Chapter 115

• One last time and then I would leave I told myself. I wouldn't look back. When I touched her and her body still responded to my touch I just needed .... fuck what did I need ... her. I needed her. She said I owned a part of her and I would treasure the fact she let me in. Damn why did it have to be like this? Why couldn't I own up to my feelings? Why was there such an emotional connection. I pay her for a service not to fuck up my head.
• That kiss punched me straight in the gut. She told me everything I needed to know but this just wasn't the right time for us. The way her arms wrapped around me tightly and possessively I felt like she was claiming me and like a fool she was in control. At that moment I would give her anything she wanted. I had to get back in control.
• I want her, I want her not. I love her, I love her not. The words repeated over and over in my head. My emotions were all over the place. No other woman had a hold on me. Just the few times I had been with her left me breathless and confused. Instead of saving her, she was trying to save me but I was a lost cause. She still had time to be happy.