Chapter 214 " Pain Will Battle With Emptiness In My Soul

• The next day, Richard decided to give his friends a few days to visit Alex before the deadline arrived. On the cloudy morning, the room was filled with friends, each carrying their regrets, and sadness was evident in everyone's eyes. Lost in her thoughts, Rebecca gazed at the landscape outside, completely oblivious to the conversations echoing in the room.
• "Observing the landscape outside, inevitably, I am reminded of a striking characteristic of Alex," she whispered, capturing everyone's attention. "He used to stand like this, in front of the window, in moments of irritation or when he needed to reflect. Sometimes, he would remain in that position for hours on end. I loved watching him, embracing him from behind and simply getting lost in that moment, absorbing the tranquility of the world outside. On some occasions, I catch Olga and Nicolas replicating this behavior, they are so similar to their father. Alex didn't lie when he said they would have his personality. And that's what keeps me here, because I see his reflection in them. Whenever Nicolas looks into my eyes, I look away, because he has the same gaze as his father, that gaze that enveloped me and often made me look away. Alex used to say, 'Rebecca, look at me, just look at me.' And today, all I want is the opportunity to meet his gaze. I play that audio daily to keep his voice alive in my mind. It never stops. This pain is excruciating, it shatters me daily, and in a little over a month, pain will battle with emptiness in my soul, because I won't have the chance to be close to him anymore." She turns and approaches the bed, gently holding his hand. "My love, who will make my cheeks blush? Who will provoke me? Who will encourage me to be bold? I guess I'll finally have to have that drink I owe you since you didn't come back to get it. On the day you leave for good, I'll have it, it will be my first drink in a long time. Maybe then I can bear all this pain. You are my other half, how can I let you go? If you are a part of me! I still don't know, my love, how I will say goodbye to you, how I will face the moment when everyone says goodbye, when I myself don't know how to say goodbye to you. And how will I teach our children to say goodbye if I myself am not capable? What will I tell them, Alex? Every night that I'm with them, they always ask me when you will stop sleeping! How do I explain that you won't wake up? That you're not just sleeping? Please, Alex, don't make us go through this. They don't deserve to lose you. Maybe I do, for being foolish. I don't deserve the wonderful man that you are, but they do. Stay here for them, please, my love." She gently caresses his face. "Why did they have to shatter everything for us, Mr. Baker? My love for you is immeasurable. You are my very essence. I would die by your side, but I need to stay for them, for our children, and when they no longer need me, I will come to you." She places a soft kiss on his forehead. "I love you, Alex. You are the love of my life." She concludes, leaving the room, carrying the weight of sadness on her shoulders.
• "Rebecca, are you okay?" Christine asks, accompanying her with concern. "Obviously not, what a stupid question. Friend, we recognize the mistakes we made with you both and carry the weight of our omission every day. I beg for forgiveness every day, knowing that we may not deserve it. I understand if you don't want our presence here, but know that, even though we made mistakes, we love Alex as much as we love you. And you can count on our full support in this difficult time."