Chapter 117 " You Owe Me An Explanation

• The next day, on a sunny afternoon in Seattle, Rebecca finally arrives in the city. After renting a car, she drives directly to her favorite refuge, a place that transports her to memories of happier times. She chooses the same spot where she was with Alex, and as soon as she settles in, a gentle breeze caresses her face. However, happiness is not part of that moment; instead, sadness envelops her like a persistent shadow. With a heavy sigh, she opens her bag and takes out the small urn containing her daughter's ashes. The pain that consumes her seems unbearable, but she knows she needs to face it. With tears streaming down her face, she tenderly embraces the urn, holding it close to her heart, as if it could bring her daughter back, at least for a moment.
• "Little daughter, I wish you were here with me, in my arms, but not like this," she whispers with tears streaming down. "I don't know how to apologize to you, and my prayers seem to have no effect. I'm sorry for everything, sorry for hurting you. Whenever I had a negative thought about you, it was a heart"wrenching pain and a guilt that consumed me, and I always prayed and asked for forgiveness for rejecting you because my love for you was greater than those bad moments. It's hard to believe that I did something so terrible, especially because on good days, you were my priority. Feeling the beats of your heart was an indescribable happiness and a joy that couldn't fit in my chest. I hate the fact that I don't remember when or how it started because it feels like I'm protecting myself from a pain that I should carry because I deserve to suffer for all the harm I caused." She opens the small urn with trembling hands. "I'm not worthy of forgiveness, but know that I love you with all my heart, and my life has become empty since you left. I love you, my little baby. May you have become a beautiful little angel in heaven. I will love you for the rest of my life."
• Rebecca rises carefully, and as tears continue to flow incessantly down her face, she spreads the ashes in that place that always held a special space in her heart. It is a moment of profound sadness, a painful farewell to her daughter. She watches the ashes blend into the landscape, becoming part of the refuge she shared with her baby.