Chapter 140 " A Kiss That Carries The Weight Of A Farewell

• Alex pulls Rebecca into his chest, enveloping her with his arms and gently stroking her hair. In that moment, the silence is filled with the warm embrace and the love he feels for her, breaking the loneliness that accompanies him daily. As much as he tries to convince himself that he doesn't deserve her presence, he longs for that moment to last, just to continue feeling her in his arms.
• "Now he's up there, keeping our daughter company," Alex whispers, breaking the silence, as tears well up in Rebecca's eyes. "You and my grandfather told me the same thing. He also assured me that everything would be fine that night, and in the end, things didn't get better. Rebecca, that year was a nightmare, the loss of our daughter was an unimaginable pain, but the night I saw you having that crisis was equally terrifying and painful. I would have died with you if they hadn't saved you. And today, when I arrived here and saw them performing CPR on my grandfather, those memories came back, and I had to deal with it all over again." He hugs her tighter, planting a soft kiss on her head. "I've tried every day to hate you, your words hurt me deeply, and whenever I'm near you and remember everything, I want to hurt you, and sometimes I do, and it's an unbearable pain. I feel terrible because when I hurt you, I hurt myself. I don't know why I can't get you out of me. I blame you every day for everything, hoping to keep you away, but despite that, all I want when I see you is to hold you, take care of you, be by your side. And I hate myself for it because in my mind, I should hate you for destroying me, and I shouldn't love you anymore. Everything is so complex, and looking back, I realize that I haven't been good for you, and I still am not."
• "I go through the same thing, Alex. The truth is, you haven't given me reasons to hate you as much as I have. But I need to hate you, it hurts to love you and not be able to be with you," she says, with tears of pain flooding her eyes. "I was better when you were away. I'll distance myself, Alex, I promise. I'm sorry for making you suffer, it was never my intention," she steps away from his embrace.