Chapter 59 Jealous

• The night was the coldest, the longest and most dreadful. I lay in bed wearing his t-shirt and clung to the covers as I played the conversation over and over again with the pain exploding each time. Maybe if I hurt enough then I would become numb, then I would lose all feeling all at once but that was not the case.
• I cried until I stopped with my mind going to imagine the future we would have had. Our children, what would they even look like? I would like to have three children, two girls and a boy. I shook my head, closing my eyes to clear my head. Nothing but darkness filled me, it comfort to me as I lay with my heart breaking over and over again.
• My eyes snapped open, light filling the room with another day on us. I wanted to wallow in my bed all day but I was a luna. I could not hide away, I had duties which I would fulfill no matter what I was going through.