Chapter 255

She paused and again I tried to apologize, though to no avail. Her face was soaked with tears at this point as she continued screaming at me.
“I don’t know! I don’t know? I don’t know that Karyn won’t support me? I don’t know that Karyn won’t fucking be happy for me? God knows I fucking tried! She wanted me to smoke, I smoked! She wanted me to wear her clothes, I’m wearing her trashy clothes!” She motioned her hands over her body during this last comment to point out that she was wearing her mom’s clothes which consisted of a tight blue tank top with white bra straps showing at the top, a jean skirt, and some ridiculous looking shoes (at least they were ridiculous to me). This motion took a mere second as she continued, “I’ve tried everything to fucking please her! She doesn’t love me! She’ll never love me! No one loves me! You think I haven’t tried!”
There was a pause again, longer than before. I had given up trying to apologize at this point. I just stared at her with heartfelt eyes, that I could feel tears welling up in. I didn’t know what to say. Kim, meanwhile, had turned her head to the side. She looked thoughtful for a second, took a deep breath, and continued, now at more of a talk than a yell.