Chapter 37

• The more the time was ticking so fast, the more I was no longer myself at all. I felt I was loosing everything that had to do with my having peace of mind, the inner peace and happiness I used to feel then whenever I was coming home was gone, all gone, just in few minutes!
• I blamed myself for never listening to anyone. I blamed myself for not listening to Jessica when she tried to stop me. I blamed myself for not listening to Nancy when she objected at first when I told her about it. Now, I'm bearing the consequences of all of that.
• I couldn't stop myself from crying my heart, my eyes and my lungs out. I was so dejected, so frustrated and heart broken.