Chapter 202 Petty

• This is the most vulnerable I’ve ever felt. I decided not to let him get to me, and I failed. I built my walls up and made them as sigh as possible, only to have a man I’ve only met once knock them all down with nothing more than a glance. Goddess, I hate him. I hate how Shane makes me feel so weak. My stupid tears won’t stop and blurred my surroundings. My throat aches and tightens, making it hard to breathe. The sound of heels clacking bounces off the walls as I run from obsidian eyes. I don’t even know where I’m going. I just needed to get as far away from them as possible.
• Korra’s howls only tore my heart more. My eyes instantly find the door to the room I’m supposed to wait for Shane in. I can’t bring myself to go in there. I can’t. I don’t want to. It would be a whole new low for me to witness him fucking someone else and still waiting for him in that room like a good girl. The thought of doing that only adds gasoline to the flames and I burn with the need to lash out. I want to scream. I want to throw everything to the ground and smash everything within arm’s reach. Fuck.
• I hate that he’s got me so shaken up. I am not a violent person. If anything, I try to be as calm as possible and react only after thinking things through. I’ve only hit a client when I needed to, but everything about Shane makes me want to be violent. I stomp my heel into the ground and stop where I am. I can’t bring myself to take another step forward. For once, my wolf agreed with me. She didn’t want to sit in there and wait for him to decide if he was going to come and give us attention or not.