Chapter 105

• With Kyle and the boys I don't give a shit, but to do it in front of the whole world is to give him hope of something that's not going to happen. I take another drag on my cigar feeling miserable once again. I was the one who clarified things and being with her is just one step to understand what the hell is what happens to me when she is next to me.
• I remind myself that this is the center of all this, which is the idea of spending time with her and fucking her, understanding what's wrong with me and somehow being able to avoid it when I find out. I can't face something I don't know how to handle because I know full well how that would end and I've had enough.
• - You are well? His voice makes me tense.