Chapter 19 Annie

• Huh!! What was I thinking ? Why did I suddenly hug him? I guess I just appreciate what he did for me and what he has been doing and it feels really nice to have someone taking care of me. I appreciate that he has been working to put food on our table and I hate that I am not useful. I have tried applying for jobs and tried finding job vacancies but all to no avail, I just come back home defeated and I hate it. I just hope something comes up soon but for today I’m just going to binge watch Netflix movies and series and just stay in bed. In bed with James.
• I don’t understand what I’m feeling. I just want to cuddle with James and just have him wrap his arms around me like I’m his baby and at the same time I know I shouldn’t. I guess it’s just my hormones going to overdrive.
• “I should get going now, I have work to do.” James say standing up from the bed. I feel like I made the situation kind of awkward but what’s worse is that I still want him to stay and just stay with me throughout today. I want to beg him to stay but my voice fails me and I didn’t want to look at him for too long because I find him attractive and I don’t want to look at him with those eyes because they will sell me out so I look at the window instead.