Chapter 196 Letters To You

• Victoria wandered through the beautiful estate surrounded by roses of all existing colors, aromatic candles, and silk. Until she came across the room that contained the wedding gifts. Cards, floral arrangements, large gift boxes, stunning paintings, congratulatory cards... and a simple white envelope that stood out among everything else. Curious, she reached for it and smiled as she turned it over to see who it was from, but then she found a simple word written in careless calligraphy, "Vicky." It was a letter from him.
• Vicky: From the first time I saw you, I knew we were meant for each other. Your shy smile and your gaze to the ground were the most adorable things I have ever witnessed, your hidden sensuality, your innocence, those naturally red lips in contrast to your porcelain white skin; I am sure that day I fell in love with you. Then I had the balls to talk to you; that party was not the first time I saw you; you were always there with your friend. The following months are the ones that my crazy head treasures the most. How you gave yourself to me, how you gave me your first time, I was the first one to touch you in every way, and no one can change that. It fills my soul to know that you were completely mine. I tried with all my might; I wanted to be the last; I wanted to be your everything, but you had to get into bed with that idiot while I tried, tried to be better for you, lucky bastard, you have no idea how much I would love to take him off the map. Hence, you come back to me, as it should always be. I do not regret anything I did to you, and I would do it a thousand times more; you fuck wonderfully, your mouth has given me unparalleled pleasures, your warm tears wetting my balls, you on your knees, you tied up, you naked, I close my eyes, and it heats me up to imagine it.
• "Paranoia is a form of consciousness, and consciousness is a form of love." Remember that when you think about how fucked up it was for me to be away from the woman of my life, you are my other half, and you pushed me away as if I were a nobody; you hid and did not take your head out of the hole, PATHETIC. But still, I love you. You and Eric were truly the only people I have ever loved. He is the only one who sacrificed his dreams for me; he was the only one who really wanted to help me; he stayed silent when our mother's bitch preferred her new husband, the arrogant pig, over her firstborn; there was a big difference between them, there were always gifts for Alex, there were always gifts for Eric. Never leave him alone. I only ask you to do that one thing for me, even though I do not deserve it. Eric deserves everything, just like you, the love of my life, always and forever. I beg you to grant me this last favor... Tell Eric that the only good thing this fucking life full of ambition and addiction gave me was a brother, a guardian angel. I love you, I love you, I love you, I loved you, I loved you, I loved you until my last breath. This is a goodbye. I am not going to rot in this disgusting prison. I have broken the nose of at least 7 wretches; I am not going to wait to be raped in the showers; I am too proud of that.