Chapter 83 Is that what you want?

• I did not listen to what he told me. I will still stand in our conversation. We're still just a sex partner and as long as he doesn't name what he feels for me, I'll hang out with the people I want to be with and no one can stop me — not even him.
• I grabbed my waist because it hurt because of what we did ago. We have no choice of place. Everywhere we go, we do "it" and are no longer afraid if someone sees us. As I ponder I played the pen because I felt like time was speeding up and I had nothing more to miss or waste. If there's anything I have to finish, maybe it's the confession. I don't want to be trapped in love that I'm not sure if it's real.
• I'll just give myself a month chance, after that, if nothing still happens, I'll go away myself. I will no longer dig my pit just to make him like and love me. I just wanted to confess to him so I knew if I should not expect anything more. Annoyed by the amount of thinking I was a reckoning, I just dropped my face on the table and counted the sheep in my brain. I don't know what else I can do to make Lucas like me. I look desperate.