Chapter 15 Embracing The Pain

• I have been trying to deny it to myself because besides being all new to me, I'm scared of what I feel. One of my fears is that maybe everything is one-sided. But now that Arcel is telling me these things...I feel like I want to allow myself to give in.
• "You fucked my life so bad but so good at the same time."
• I should be alarmed by all the things he said to me. But no, maybe I am sick in the head that's why I'm not scared, perhaps because I know that this might be Arcel's defense mechanism because of trauma?