Chapter 47

• We arrive in Tokyo at five a.m. on dad’s private jet. After landing, it takes an hour to get to the house. Maija, Mom, and dad crash, probably tired from the long flight, but I can’t sleep. All I can think about is still being in love with the girl who broke my heart. All that time I spent burying my feelings between the thighs of strange women meant nothing. It’s as if time stopped for me, and I just walked out of that treehouse that morning with my heart crushed. But while time stopped for me, these two years have passed for her. Her sexual attraction to me is probably gone by now, and she must be in love with Danuel. I mean, why else would he still be around after two years. When she told him she loved him earlier, it felt like she stuck a knife in my heart and twisted it. I wanted to ask her then why she couldn’t love me. Regardless of our parent’s relationship, why couldn’t she love me? But I have to be more mature about it because just like Sienna could not make me love her, I can’t force Maija to feel what she doesn’t.
• I believed that distance and time would make me fall out of love. But after today, I know that is wrong. Distance may dull the pain, and I can bury my feeling, but they will always come flooding back. I can’t keep avoiding her or them for the rest of my life. What if she married… I clench my fist as the pain passes—the thought of her marrying someone else. Oh well, it’s bound to happen, so I should make peace with the idea because I want to be in her life even if I’m not the one in her heart. I missed her so much, so I want to make up for her, even if it is just as a friend. She is mad at me right now since I was an ass to her and Danuel because of my jealousy. Way to go, Zayne; she probably hates you more than she would have before. At least I get to spend the next two weeks with her trying to prove that I’m not an ass. I can’t make her love me but making her like shouldn’t be too difficult. I smile, finally feeling relaxed enough to sleep, super excited for tomorrow.
• The next morning, I hop out of bed excited to get operation Friends with Maija up and running. I brush my teeth and pull on some clothes before heading down to the kitchen. Mom, dad and Maija are all seated at the kitchen island having breakfast.