Chapter 46

• Maija
• The initial shock leaves me a bit dazed as I look at him; it’s as if I’m looking at my standing before me. How did I forget he took my whole heart and never gave it back? As I look at him, all he does is glare at me. I feel so crushed. I’m still in love with a man who still looks at me with disdain whenever he sees me. Does he hate me so much? Still, no matter how much he hates me. I love him; I love him so much; my heart, soul, and body are no longer my own because they belong to him. What were the last two years for, all the pain the crying? Didn’t I go through all of that because I was getting over him? I should be over him. But from the way I’m feeling, I am clearly still in love. Have I been lying to myself for the last two years, all a lie? “Oh,” the word slips from my mouth, oh .it was all a lie.
• “Is that all you have today to me?” He asks, the anger in his voice obvious. What do I say to him? I love you. Seeing you now made me realize how much I’ve missed you. It was always you; my heart will always choose you, and please never leave me again. There is nothing I can say to make him love me. I was just someone he kissed two summers ago, so I have to need to let go of this feeling, but I can’t shake the overwhelming urge to throw myself in his arms.