Chapter 148

• I didn't heed and suddenly, all I saw was darkness and I couldn't control where I went in my head. I was pushed back to little me in Russia trying to fight off my mum as she pinned me to the bed and pushed my shorts down, Break out Orian! I muffled a groan snapping my eyes open feeling the beads of sweat rolling down my face and the dull ache in my head intensifying. I looked around my room to make sure that I was there and not back to where I never wanted to be.
• I stood up from the bed clutching my head with a grateful sigh that I could pull myself out of it. I couldn't imagine breaking into a series of panic attacks, waking Amara up with my screams, and embarrassing myself before her, which would make her more irritated.
• After a few more deep breaths and being convinced that I wouldn't break into a panic attack, I left my room, made sure everywhere was protected, and left the castle but not before checking on Amara one more time and making sure she'd be safe till I returned.