Chapter 66

• When one day turned into one week, I felt like I was going crazy. On the surface, things were normal but I could feel it in my bones that everything was different. He didn’t ignore me, we spoke to each other as usual but he never cracked a smile. He never went out of his way to check on me like he used to and the strain around us worsened.
• Guilt ate at me and the more time passed, the more I hyperventilated in his presence, fearing an explosion and the more I feared we’d gotten to the point of no return. It was as if I’d pushed him away forever and I didn’t know how to fix it but I knew I had to so on that fateful day, I put on my shoes that were getting a bit too tight and then I went to his office.
• I clutched my cross bag to myself as my heart raced. My skin felt too tight for me and various irrational thoughts sprang up in my mind. I feared he’d never forgive me. Scenes of him giving me a bland smile as he accepted my apology plagued me. The thought of continuing to live together with restrained emotions made me almost suffocate in my skin. And as I walked to the office, time seemed too slow. The sun beat down on me too hard and my heart beat too fast.