Chapter 57 Mariana

• I laid on the bed wide awake. I couldn't sleep, I tried to but I couldn't with all the voices in my head. The room was dark and silent and all I could hear were Lorenzo's light snores. He had is arm wrapped around my waist and his face buried in the crook of my neck. He was fast asleep,completely oblivious to the turmoil that was going on inside my head. I closed my eyes and tried to focus on my breathing but my thoughts kept racing. I don't know what had happened last night.
• When he asked me what was wrong, I was so afraid to talk to him, to tell him what I had found out because I didn't know how he would react. But most of all I didn't want to accept it. Before i had arrived at his house I had planned all what I would say, I had planned how I would have gotten answers from him even if it was going to lead to an arguement. But the moment I saw him, I forgot everything. When he pulled me into his embrace I didn't want to let go, I just wanted to live in that moment with him, forget who he really was, I wanted to forget who I really was.
• I could feel myself starting to spiral. I took a deep breath and tried to focus on the present moment. I focused on the warmth of Lorenzo body next to mine,the sound of his breathing and the feeling of the sheets against my skin.