Chapter 59

• REMY
• So this is what heartbreak was really like, I thought to myself while I lounged on the balcony outside my room. Kyle knew what he was about when he told me to come here. This ski resort was such a beautiful and tranquille place. In my état d’esprit actuel, I could use some of that. The isolated property was nestled between the mountains, so high the mist that wafted around the peaks gave the illusion that they had disappeared into the clouds. The mountain air was so crisp and fresh that I almost felt bad for polluting it with my cigarette smoke. For a moment I was lost in the view, my eyes following the way the lake cut through the canyons and taking in the beauty of a sunset that was a kaleidoscope of colors, orange, gold, and pink.
• Funny, I’d written so many songs about heartbreak but I’d never really experienced it. Sans doute, I was crushed when my parents died but this kind of pain hit differently. It was inexplicable. I think this is one of the experiences that could never be fully described, only felt, like an itch. If asked what an itch felt like it would be difficult to describe it avec précision.