Chapter 54

• Every night, it was either Xavier came back late, maybe at a time she was deep in sleep or he wouldn't cone home at all, he awoke early too and the only chance she had to actually see him was at the office and he was not always around. This was good right? At least he wasn't treating her as a slave or a whore, at least he gave her the respect she wanted, but now she wanted more. Once she had thought that this all she would ever need, all she would ever ask for but now she discovered that she wanted more, she wanted more than just his respect, she wanted love, she wanted him to be close, to hold her, she wanted to come back from work in the evening and talk to her husband about what happened at work, she wanted to go on dates- or at least go to places together with him, she wanted so much and everyday when Shawn rode her to work, it became more clearer that those thoughts were just wishful. It would never happen. She was married to a Mafia Leader who had to travel places, he had too much stuff to do - far important stuff.
• Some days she worried, she worried that just maybe there could be so much temptations. She didn't know much about being a Mafia Leader, but what she did know was that there would be a ton of women flaunting around him, women who were more beautiful, women who were more graceful than her clumsy self, women who were more..... Taller.
• Yes, she felt insecure, she knew that Xavier felt something for her, maybe he even loved her, but in his world was there any space for love?