Chapter 54 Societal Judgments (Part One)

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• My heart was pounding as I stood outside Brian’s penthouse, trying to gather the courage to ring the bell. I had been pacing back and forth for the last fifteen minutes, my hand hovering over the buzzer, but each time I tried to press it, a wave of anxiety washed over me, and I recoiled. I knew I had to see him, to talk to him about what I had been feeling, but the fear of rejection was paralyzing me. What if he didn’t feel the same way about me anymore? What if he thought it was inappropriate and wanted to end things before they even started?
• No. I was stronger than this. Sean was right. Even if Brian rejected me, it wouldn’t be the end of the world. Sure, it would hurt, and it might take me forever to be over it, but I needed closure, whether it was a yes or a blunt no. I couldn’t keep living in a world of maybes and what-ifs. It was time to take a leap of faith and find out where Brian and I stood.