Chapter 7
- “Is that all, Mr. Carrero?” I finish my notes and push the pen into the top of the notebook with a sigh, clammier than ever.
- “I’d like a copy of the letter sent to my father’s email, and I would like it if you would call me Jake … like I asked.” He lifts his feet onto his desk, swiveling his chair back to face it, and regards me with a relaxed, smug look.
- “If that’s what you prefer.” I’m not used to employers showing so little concern for titles or behaving so casually. I’m slightly disappointed in the laxness I’ve seen from both Margo and Jake so far in how they behave with each other, making me uneasy. Here he is, sitting with his feet on his thousand-dollar desk like a lounging teenager, and it kills the image I once had of him.
- “I’m not Mr. Carrero … that’s my father.” His eyes flicker to the photo on his desk, and I catch a dark shadow in them. He slides his feet back down as though not so relaxed with that one tiny word, ‘father.’ The feeling’s gone before deciding if I saw it or not, and I shiver inwardly. Men and their dark looks don’t sit well with me; it’s one of the few things which unnerve me deeply enough to bring me out in a cold sweat.
- “Okay, Jake!” It’s almost painful to use his name, even if he insists. And it’s forced. He returns to smiling, looking pleased, and I stand, indicating my departure.
- “Do you like working here, Emma?” He catches me off guard as he leans forward onto his desk, resting his arms in front of him, halting my escape for a moment. I pause, stunned by his question.
- “So far,” I answer without thought, wondering why he even cares.
- “Five years is a long time to work for this company.” Despite my reservations about him, his voice is soothing, and I note how his tone alters when he’s not talking business. He has this way of capturing you with just a subtle change, drawing you in. His relaxed, natural voice is almost sensual but overall comforting and genuine. He seems to have the art of relaxing people down to a finely-honed skill, making women want to chat with him effortlessly.
- Very good, very clever. Win over women with feigned interest. Smooth player.
- “I guess I’m someone who likes to stick to something and work at it. See where it takes me.” I tap my notebook against my hip in distraction, trying not to react to that voice.
- “You don’t care that you’re spending your twenties missing out on life?” He’s appraising me again, something he does whenever I’m faced with him, and I still haven’t gotten used to it. His eyes eat me up as though I’m a puzzle to be worked out. I guess I interest him on some level.
- “Perspective, Mr. Carrero; this job offers me opportunities most twenty-six-year-old women never get the chance to experience,” I say, shrugging, trying to will those sharp eyes to look elsewhere and stop tearing into me.
- “You never aspired to be anything different?” He watches me thoughtfully, if not a little intensely.
- “Such as?” I shift on my shoes. The rising awkwardness from his attention is getting a little extreme, and my uneasiness is growing.
- “Managerial role?” He grins; his remark amuses him, but I fail to see the joke, so I smile frostily.
- “I don’t have the qualifications to be in a managerial position, Mr. Carrero. I worked hard to climb from admin assistant to here; this is where I want to be,” I retort, easily irked by him again.
- “I guess that’s lucky for me, then.” He throws me his I-can-charm-anyone smile, and I internally bristle. He obviously knows he’s hot and uses it to his advantage too well. I’ve seen how he turns it up on women and seems to like the reaction but turns more ‘dude’ with men. I want to get out of here.
- “Perhaps.”
- “Time will tell, Miss Anderson. You can go now; see if Margo is back to relieve you. That letter is not urgent so take lunch first.” He smiles me away with what I assume is his ‘charming’ look, obviously bored with my lack of female swooning, and I turn to leave, exhaling with relief.
- “Very good, Mr … Jake.” I throw him a tight smile and catch the flicker of amusement in his eye, aware that he knows how much I dislike the informality.
- Very good, Carrero; I’m here for your fucking entertainment.
- I walk toward the heavy door, my mood ruined by his smug face, a hot bubbling inside my stomach.
- “Wait. Can you book a table for two tonight at Manhattan Penthouse at nine in my name?” he adds quickly, and I turn back to nod that I have heard him, face blank with no reaction.
- Wonder which playmate is being wined and dined tonight?
- I’ve got used to the particular date entries on his schedule and the list of current playmates gracing his bed. I’m sure he ran out of headboard space long ago to keep a tally of notches for his conquests, and it’s just another reason I will never warm to him. He’s a slut.
- “Yes, sir.” I close the door behind me and scowl through the dense closed wood. The urge to stick my fingers up with venom surprises me. He has an ability, it seems, to piss me off without effort or fundamental reason, and I don’t even want to analyze it. I guess I’ll have to get used to the reactions he pulls out of me and work harder to remain impassive.
- Margo returns twenty minutes later, and I am free just as the AC finally breathes a fresh coolness over us from the ceiling, a wave of relief. I’m sticky, hot, and flushed, and I need a change of clothes.
- I head to the bathroom for a quick freshen-up and gaze at the poorly lit mirror on the wall to see I’m glowing red. My cheeks are flushed, there’s high color across the nape of my neck, and I have a dewy complexion where my make-up has sweated. My hair is no longer slick and smooth in its bun but is weaving its way loose despite the products I use to keep it sleek. I have natural waves, which I straighten to get my hair this smooth and manicured. I’m in disarray.
- Dammit. I can’t continue with my day looking like this.
- I look like I’ve done a workout in my work clothes, and I’m melting away. I look like a panda with how my eyeliner has collected under my lower lashes, and my usually precise lipstick is smudged and damp. I blot my face and release my hair to minimize the damage. The humidity and heat have caused it to pull back into waves, and it’s covered in bumps and creases made by the hair ties. Without my straighteners, it will never look right unless I wash it. There are showers on the fourth floor within the company gym; maybe I should sacrifice lunch and get a quick shower to cool off after sweating like I’ve been in the tropics.
- I check my watch, work out how much time I have, and decide to go for it. I have a forty-five-minute lunch break and can shower in less than half that time. Luckily, if I'm ever asked on an overnight trip at short notice, I keep a change of clothes in the office, a suggestion from Margo. I know I have toiletries in the bag too.
- With my hair held in a loose ponytail, I return and retrieve the bag, glad that Margo is focused on her laptop while taking a call and doesn’t see me. Mona, the outer receptionist, throws me a funny look but says nothing.
- I work for a company that invests in hotels, fitness centers, and spas. These facilities are standard in Carrero buildings and accessible for all employees, another perk of this job. I head down in the elevator to the employee gym floor with my bag.
- When I emerge, I look brighter and neater. The makeup residue is gone. I have fresh clothes and hair falling into long, natural waves in their blow-dried state. Unfortunately, there are no hair straighteners in the women’s locker room, but I’m cooler. Having my hair down bothers me. My hairstyle is part of my uniform and my defense; having it up and neat helps me feel more in control and is part of the image I present.
- Having my hair down like this makes me nervous. I know how often I tug at my hair and twist it when I’m home on weekends, another nervous old Emma habit that I’ve found no control over, anxiety-related and childish. There’s nothing for it; tying it up without my products and straighteners will look messy. I’ve got to cope with it down for half a day. Even I can get through that. I assure myself as I head to the cafeteria for lunch, ignoring people looking at me as if they don’t recognize me, which makes me uneasy.