Chapter 133

• Back in my seat, I try to right my dress, pulling the skirt back down my body awkwardly, my face hot. I’m sure I must be several shades of pink and red; my skin is glowing.
• Despite the tight confines of the car and invasive controls around us, Jake somehow managed to make good on his promise and made love to me in his car, on his lap facing me forward to the front windshield, with his arms around me, glad of the heavily tinted windows. It was awkward but erotic, and I ended up sprawled over his steering wheel, gasping in the afterglow. Only then did I become selfconscious about our surroundings, relieved when I saw he had pulled into an empty alley shaded by tall buildings on either side. He’d known he would have sex with me as soon as he turned the car. The appearance of the condom was a huge hint, his naughty wink, and grin confirming he’d pre-planned my surrender to his way of thinking. I have no chance with him as a lover; I will never have any say in this life ever again.
• “So … guess we’ll be going to your place to pack a case then, right?” He grins at me, leaning over to clip my seatbelt back on, always obsessed with taking care of me as though I’m incapable. He looks completely unaffected by what we’ve just done. Even his hair is still in place.