Chapter 214

• “If he loved me, then he wouldn’t have so cruelly kissed her.” I spit, her stance unmoving, arms folded across her chest as though dealing with a petulant child. Her voice is steady and stern, with a look in her eye that belongs to a schoolmistress.
• “If he didn’t love you, then he wouldn’t have done anything at all, Emma. He stupidly did it because he was in an incredible amount of heartache. You hurt each other. He only found out later that you were bluffing about the other guy, but you still rejected him.” She walks forward, sliding beside me, regarding me, pleading, and takes my hands gently, but I turn my face away, defying her defense of him.
• “He should’ve known I would never do anything like that, and I didn’t reject him. I just said it was too soon.” a tear rolls down my cheek; my head is in chaos again. I never seem to be able to get any of this straight in my head, at exactly whose fault this is, if I should’ve done anything differently, or how we could’ve prevented all this.