Chapter 6 I Hate You

• “It’s you,” Xavier whispered, his voice barely audible over the sound of the pouring rain outside as his lips connected with mine in a soft, gentle kiss. For a moment, my mind went numb with shock and disbelief. The feeling of his touch sent shivers down my spine, making me forget about everything else at that moment. His smell fills my nostrils, making my wolf howl in approval, recognizing its mate.
• But the human in me knew this was wrong and dangerous. I pushed Xavier on his back, breaking the kiss abruptly, and took a step back, trying to regain my composure. “What are you doing? This... this doesn’t seem right,” I stammered, my heart racing with conflicting emotions. “We can’t do this.”
• Xavier rubbed his chin, a smile playing on his lips, his eyes dark with desire. “I know it’s wrong, but I can’t fight this pull between us,” he whispered, stepping closer. “I need you.”
• Xavier’s words made my mind race with desire and confusion. Despite knowing the consequences, I couldn’t deny the intense attraction between us. But still, I shook my head. Xavier hates me, and I knew that pursuing anything further would only lead to heartbreak and complications.
• “You are my brother,” I finally confessed, my voice barely above a whisper. “We can’t do this.”
• Xavier stands up from where he is sitting, his height towering over me as he reaches out to gently cup my face. “I don’t care,” he murmurs, his gaze unwavering. “I can’t resist you.” My heart pounds in my chest as I struggle to maintain my resolve, torn between what I know is right and the overwhelming desire that threatens to consume us both.
• “We are not related by blood, anyway.” Xavier’s voice is filled with longing and desperation, his words causing a tumult of conflicting emotions within me. I take a step back, trying to distance myself from the intensity of the moment, but his touch lingers on my skin, leaving me feeling both exhilarated and terrified at the same time.
• “NO. Even if we are mates and even if my wolf is howling for you, I cannot allow myself to fall for you.” I said, my voice barely above a whisper as I struggled to maintain my resolve. “Even if you weren’t my brother, I would have never taken you as my mate,” I continue, my heart aching with the weight of my decision. “I hate you; I hate every single thing about you,” I added, my words filled with pain and anger.
• As the pain and suffering that I have endured for so long finally came to the surface, I knew that this was the only way to protect myself. Yes, I love my love. Yes, I love my brother, but I hate him with every fiber of my being, for every time he has endured my pain and suffering. Where was he when I was crying myself to sleep every night? Where was he when I needed someone to lean on? He is the Alpha of the pack still, but he has failed in his duty to protect and care for me.
• “You hate me...” Xavier’s voice quivered as he spoke, his eyes filled with hurt and confusion.
• I nodded my head as the internal turmoil continued to rage within me, torn between the love I once felt for my brother and the betrayal I now harbored toward him.
• Xavier grabs my cheeks in between his palms, squeezing them tightly. “I did so much for you; I protected you from everything, and this is how you repay me?” He whispered, his voice breaking. I could see the pain in his eyes, but the wounds he had inflicted were too deep for forgiveness.
• Tears welled up in my eyes as I struggled to find the words to respond, knowing that our relationship would never be the same again. With a heavy heart, I finally whispered, “I’m sorry, Xavier. But we can never be mates or brothers again.” Xavier’s expression hardened, his grip on my cheeks tightening even more before he released me with a sigh. “I don’t care if you hate me or not, but the truth is that you are my mate, and nothing can change the bond we share,” he said firmly.
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• “This is not true,” Henry shouted, staring at me with a mixture of shock and disbelief. “I don’t want you to be my mate.”
• I pulled his shirt closer, feeling the undeniable pull of the mate bond between us. “Do you think I want you as my mate, Henry? Believe me, this is as unexpected for me as it is for you.” Henry’s eyes widened as he tried to free himself from my grasp, but the mate bond was too strong.
• “We have no choice in this matter,” I said firmly, knowing that our fates were now intertwined, whether we liked it or not.
• “NO…!” Henry shouted, his voice filled with anger and frustration. “I don’t want you as my mate. Never.!”
• “What will you do now, Henry?” I asked calmly, knowing that fighting against the mate bond would only bring us more pain in the end.
• “I Henry Clane, the omega of Dark Moon Pack, reject you, Xavier De La Vega, as my mate!” Henry declared, his tone defiant.
• A smirk played on my lips as I responded, “You think you have a choice in this matter, even if I don’t want you as my mate, either?” I pulled him closer, our eyes locked in a battle of wills. “Your rejection made me want to not let you go even more. You’re mine, whether you like it or not.”
• Henry struggled against my grip, but I could see the fear in his eyes. Deep down, he knew he couldn’t escape the mate bond that connected us. “I will never reject you, but don’t ever think that I will accept you either,” I whispered, feeling a mix of defiance and desire. “You are bound with me forever; I will not mate, but also not allow you to mate with anyone else. You are mine, and that is not a choice you get to make.” My words hung heavy in the air, a declaration of possession and control that left no room for negotiation.
• I hate this new dynamic between us, but seeing the pain and struggle in his eyes to get freed from the mate bond only fueled my desire to keep him bound to me. The power I held over him was intoxicating, and I knew that no matter how much he resisted, he would always be mine.