Chapter 127

• It takes me a moment to recognize the feeling and the reason behind it, but soon I realize that I'm excited about our future together. The thought causes a sense of extreme happiness and a hint of anxiety to spread. My emotions are in conflict. One small part of me, perhaps the more rational part, is still skeptical about our relationship. The fact that it is moving at super-speed, along with the insecurities I struggle with daily, seems to be the cause.
• I inhale deeply, breaking off my wandering thoughts as I study him a little closer. He has his wide, muscular back to me and is focused on something in front of him. My thoughts return. This time I decide to focus on those other and more positive emotions that are constantly running through me when I'm with him. These emotions are increasingly more dominant and they accept and support the imprint; as well as the idea that Edward and I are destined to be together. I'm immediately overcome by a powerful and strong sense of belief that everything in my life has simply been leading up to this point, and that it is now my life can truly begin. It's a very strange, but very intense feeling.
• Deciding that I've stood in the entry lost in my own thoughts long enough, I take a step forward. I'm a little surprised that Edward hasn't noticed me yet, but when I tentatively reach out to get a read on his emotions, I'm overwhelmed by an intense wave of deep sadness and a spark of anger. The emotions hit me like a slap in the face and I immediately feel like I am invading his privacy somehow. My emotional response to his feelings immediately makes him aware of my presence and he turns his body towards mine. Without any real rhyme or reason, my breath catches in my throat and my body tenses as though I've been caught doing something I shouldn't. His green eyes flash to mine and I am shocked by the deep sadness I find there. The emotion is quickly masked however, when his eyes slowly trail down my body and his eyes darken with a potent look of carnal desire.