Chapter 58

• NO THREESOMES
• THIS AFTERNOON, RYAN’S leaving with the kids to drive to the beach. My flight to Atlanta leaves around dinnertime. Mateo doesn’t know that. He thinks I’m coming in tomorrow, and we’ll leave together after work. After a long week, and the drama of him formally meeting my kids, I figure he could use a little surprise. My suitcase is packed. My mail is on hold. And my home phone is being directed to my cell. That took some figuring out, but I didn’t want to have to tell Ryan to make sure to call my cell. Yep, this is the new sneaky me—the one who’s dead set on making progress on my sex bucket list.
• Checking my suitcase one more time, I’ve packed so much it feels a little bit like I’m moving in with him. With all the starts and stops, waiting and wondering, I feel like it’s taken forever to get to this point. But this feels big—spending a whole week together—24/7. Not even Ryan and I did that unless we were on vacation. So this is a huge step for us.