Chapter 51

• Jacob lets Connor go first and plops down by the sidewalk, waiting his turn. I love how the kids are cooperating today, but Ryan has me kind of pissed off right now. Why can’t everything ever be good at the same time? I turn to go inside, and Ryan follows me into the foyer, grabbing my elbow.
• “Emerson, I’m sorry.”
• “Go fuck yourself, Ryan,” I say. “I don’t need you to forgive me anymore. For a long time, I waited for that, andhoped for it. But you know what? I finally forgave myself, so I don’t give a damn if you do or not. I may have made the mistake, but I was ready to fight for us. You never were. I would’ve never given up, but you did.”