Chapter 59 - Thinking

• And now what am I supposed to do? What has to be the next step and what are the correct moves? I felt between a rock and a hard place in some way, the last thing I wanted and expected to happen was to be pregnant with Fabrizio Folliotti and that was exactly the situation I found myself in, fate loves to take so many turns that it ends up leaving me in a place like this: On the other side of the world wanting to escape from the father of my own child. I wanted to just punch a hole in the ground and disappear, never to be found again under any kind of concept or opportunity.
• The pain had been caused by some kind of attempted or risked abortion that unfortunately was not successful, or at least if it had not been exactly that, it was what could have caused: I would have wanted so much for such a goal to be fulfilled but unfortunately it had not arisen. In that way, I wanted it to happen spontaneously and that there was simply no way to remedy something like that. But it seemed that that fetus I had in the womb was clinging to me too well and everything indicated that it did not have much intention of leaving.
• This was a fucking nightmare that I needed to wake up from as soon as possible, I refused to accept the condition I was in as much as I could resist continuing with it.