Chapter 30 - Landscape

• Having him with me felt so good, his aroma was deeply delighting and brought me an indescribable peace, watching him sleep was like seeing the eighth wonder of the world, completely tired from having given me pleasure in every possible way even though on this precise occasion it had only been in the lustful and sexual sphere.
• What was going on? My plans went to hell, every one of them. I was allowing everything I had sworn I would never allow myself so I had to face that whole internal struggle with myself: The part of me that wanted to run away in the next second and the part of me that wanted to willingly stay trapped in his arms. .
• I got up while he was sleeping, I got into the shower so I could relax a little and think calmly, I let the warm and somewhat cold water fall at the level of my neck and settle after running over the rest of my back. . I didn't understand if what I had done was the right thing or not to be honest.