Chapter 34 Surfing and picnic

Sydney -
Love, what is love? Is it when a man and woman love each other, a woman and woman love one another or a man and man love one another? Those I get but how does it work in complex situations like this.
Just how exactly was I meant to reconcile the loathing I felt for myself? Yes, there was a very strong physical attraction between us. That couldn't be denied but he didn't deserve hate for being a calculating human being. He had been very clear with his overture, he wanted my body and a wife to appease his grandfather. I had got into this contract knowing exactly what it implicates. It seemed silly to hate him for adhering to his contractual obligations.