Chapter 5 Episode Four

• Alexandra's Point Of View
• Why the hell did I rejected him in the first place?
• If I had said yes to him when he has asked me out the first time, I wouldn't have been rotting alone for two years. For two fucking years!!
• I was having so much fun with Justin. I thought that I couldn’t be happy in any male's company after Xander but I was wrong. I'm laughing so much after a long time and my laugh is not forced. It’s real. I am real.
• I stared at Justin who is busy narrating his childhood stories of how he used to scare his neighbors off when he was 13, we are currently seated in a restaurant and waiting for our dinner to arrive. He has scared his neighbors by getting out of his house naked. Yes, naked. Oh damn! I laughed so hard that my stomach started hurting.
• "Stop it. People are looking at us like we are jokers." I breathe out between my laughter.
• He smirked at me and said smugly, "I can be your Joker, you can be my Harley Quinn." and winking at me.
• "Ugh... How cheesy. But so sorry I am allergic to cheese." I wave my hand off in a dismissing manner.
• He sighs heavily before replying "Way to break a guy's heart." And then makes a sad face.
• I smiled at him. No doubt he is so funny and cute. He can make me laugh. But that kiss, that was something. The way he kissed me hard and rough, the way his body was pressed against mine. I shivered at the thought, biting my lips. Damn, I’m acting like a teenage girl.
• "Stop it." I stared at Justin, confused. His eyes were fixated on my lips.
• "Stop biting your lips," he whispered gazing into my eyes. Lust swarming in his eyes. It made me twitch down there. His eyes were hungry. Maybe I shouldn't provoke him but...what if I do?
• "Or what?" I challenge him. I don't know why but I felt so confident around him. I want to experience all the things which I used to do.
• Because you want to get yourself hurt again.
• I frown at that. I can't let anybody use me. 'But what if you use him and he uses you?'. That's acceptable. I smirk at that. But why am I feeling guilty? I am not doing anything wrong.
• Yes, you are. Remember ' Xander.'
• But he fucking left me and never came back. That's it, I am so angry. I won't let him destroy my life anymore. I knew deep down, I wanted him to come back but he didn't for four years so now why would he come back now? He can't--
• "Earth to Alex!" I got cut out of my thoughts by Justin, snapping his finger in front of my eyes and staring at me with amusement.
• "What were you thinking?" He asked me.
• "Uh...nothing." He leaned towards me from across the table, licking his lips. My eyes falls on his lips instantly.
• "If you are thinking about round two of what we did back there, we can do it again, you know?" He whispers. I sucked in a deep breath, calming my racing heart down. Control yourself, you're a grow woman!
• After that, Justin leans back on his chair smirking, probably knowing the effect he has on me.
• Many men try to flirt with me, even say very dirty things but all I felt towards them was anger and I definitely had slapped some of those men. But when Justin says things like this and gaze at me with lust-filled eyes, it doesn't make me feel uncomfortable instead I feel giddy, longing for it.
• Soon after that, dinner arrives. We did not say anything and just enjoyed our dinner silently. But I could feel the tension between us. The sweet sweet tension.
• My hands were shaking slightly because he wouldn’t stop staring at me, I could feel his heated gaze on me. How is he even eating, if his eyes won’t move away. I can’t take this anymore.
• I put my spoon down, staring straight into his eyes.. He stared back with a mysterious glint in his eyes.
• He also puts his spoon down but still… his eyes fixed on me. I gulped down my saliva, my throat suddenly going dry. He removed his wallet from his back pocket, puts some dollars on the table, and stands up.
• I copied his action by also standing up. He walked toward me, placing his hand on the small part of my back guiding me out of the restaurant and towards the parking lot where my car was parked. I took out my key from my clutch when suddenly the key is snatched from my hand and my body is pressed against the car door.
• I looked up at Justin who has his head tilted to one side, having a serious look on his face. I don't know how can he could change so suddenly.
• "If I take you against the car, do you think anybody will see us? " he asked me like he was asking about the weather.
• "Yes!" I whispered, my heart picking up speed.
• "Hmmm..." He hummed, then suddenly he pushes me against him. I flushed.
• He moved his hand behind me. I heard a click of the door being opened then I'm pushed into the backseat of the car.
• He followed me in and closed the door, then turns around. His hand moves over my neck, fingers caressing my side. He lowered his face between my neck and shoulder, placing heavy wet kisses on my neck. I moved my head aside to give him more access.. wanting more of his sloppy wet kisses.
• His other free hand sneaks around my waist, pulling me into him. Shamelessly I moaned, making him groan. His whole chest rumbled with it. The vibration of his chest, made me want to press myself against him. What is happening to me? Why am I so attracted to him? I closed my eyes.
• I felt his head moving over my hair, sniffing me.
• "I like how you smell. Sweet torture." He whispered huskily over my ear, kissing and biting my earlobe. I placed my hands on his chest, clenching the shirt material.
• His lips moved over to my jaws, tongue trailing over my skin, making me pant. His placed kisses all over my cheeks then to my lips but not kissing, just hovering over there. I opened my eyes to find him looking at me.
• "Look at me. Look at who is kissing you now, right here. At the back of your car.." With that, he crashes his lips on mine. His tongue trailed over my lips, asking for permission. I gave into him fully, allowing him take me into the world of ecstasy which I had forgotten about a long time ago.
• I pulled away to gulp down some air but his lips never left me, they go again down my neck. We were lost in ourselves, not caring if anyone out there could see us. As in cue, I saw something flash past the door. I jump back in surprised, my head bumping into the roof of the car.
• "Ouch!" I yelped. Justin stared at me.
• "What happened?" He asks worriedly.
• "Uh-nothing, umm I thought I saw something out there..." I said to him, trailing off…. He looked at my face and then outside the window.
• “I will check it out.” He informed me already opening the car door, and stepping outside. I followed him closely.
• The whole surrounding was quiet, and there was no one out there. Maybe It was all just in my head.
• "I think, it’s nothing. I guess.. I was just being paranoid." I voiced out, but I did not get any reply from Justin.
• I turned my head, to find him stiff with a blank face. Is he alright? Did he see anything?
• "Hey. You alright?" I asked, tapping him lightly on the arm. He suddenly turns his head towards me like I have pulled him away from some kind of daze.
• "Yeah. Yeah... I'm fine. I think we should go now. It is getting late." He answered blinking his his eyes repeatedly.
• First, he was all over me like there was no tomorrow. Now, he wants to go because it's getting late? Wow just wow.
• I shook my head with a frown on my face and got into the driver's seat after taking the keys from him. After a moment, he also joined me by sitting in the passenger seat.
• I started the engine, driving out to drop him at his home. He was awfully quiet the whole ride. Usually, he does the talking.
• Okay, now you see where this got you? He kissed and now he is running away.
• A sour taste fills my mouth. I want to curse every known and unknown profanity at him and myself also. I clenched the steering wheel tightly, speeding up to get this guy off my car as soon as possible.
• I was tempted to leave him in the middle of the road but then I remembered he works with me. If I do anything like that karma will bite me back in my ass.
• Soon we reached his house, it was quite big modern house. No doubt, my company pays its employees well. Justin did not make any move to leave the car.. ohh how much I want to shove him out, but I restrained myself. I know he can feel the fury rolling off me.
• He sighs before saying,
• "Look, I'm sorry. I know I kind of behaved weirdly back there and instead of apologizing I acted like an idiot and awarded you with my silence.." My eyes narrowed down at him.
• "But I'm sorry for behaving like an idiot. Don't feel negative about me, I really like you." My eyes widen at that. What the fuckitity? "Yeah I really really like you.." he continued. "And I had lied to you when I said that I wanted nothing permanent but I want to make it like forever. I don't care if you reject me because I'm not going to stop following you, I do have some stalker tendencies. I’m going to bug you until you accept me." He completed in a single breath then takes a deep breath and stared at me expectantly.
• I am speechless. Speechless will be an understatement… I didn’t know what to say. He likes me? Like seriously? And he is going to stalk me?
• Then someone whispers inside my head.
• Maybe he is the one coming into your room at night, Alexandra. My eyes widen at that thought, I felt afraid.
• I panicked. But there was no way in hell that’s possible?I’m just building sandcastle up in my head. Silly me.
• "Umm-- I don't know what to say." I replied honestly.
• "I'm so stupid. You can take your time, you know." He smiled at me, gets out of the car, and turns toward me. He leans back down again and kissed my lips suddenly before pulling away. It was short and passionate. I smiled at him, as he walks towards his house.
• Maybe, it can be a new start for me.
• Just maybe.
• With that, I head over to my home.
• ***
• I walked straight towards my bed and fell face down on my bed after taking off my shoes.
• I did not even bother with changing my clothes or even putting on the lights. Which I realized, is my very big mistake as I sensed someone else's presence in my room.
• I held my breath, not wanting to make any move.
• I am a hundred percent sure, that I’m not the only one in this room, I can sense another presence.
• Am I being paranoid? Am I having hallucinations? No, I am fine.
• Is it really Justin? No, it can't be him. Maybe Xander? But why will he hide? How I want to roll my eyes at myself but I don't even dare to move an inch. I’m so scared.
• Should I make a run towards the door? What if the person is already standing at the door because everyone runs towards the door, don't they? Ohh, God! Please help me.
• Faster than I could blink, I felt pinned to the bed.
• "How dare you allow that bastard touch you!" The unknown person growled at me. I could feel his fingers digging into my skin. I cried out, begging.
• I could not see his face but he was above me, pressing his body against mine. He had that presence. The same presence of the man in my dreams.
• "P...please let me go." I cried, hot tears pouring from my eyes.
• "You let him kiss your lips." He whispered huskily against my lips before kissing me so passionately. Even in this situation, my stomach turned in pleasure.
• "Your neck."
• I gripped tightly to the bedsheets as his teeth grazed my neck. He sucked on it, sending sparks of electricity down my spine.
• "Yes, I'm the only one allowed to make you feel this way. Only me. Your lips are mine, your body is mine. Your soul belongs to me." He grunts.
• His breath felt hot against my ear. I yearned for him to continue whispering. Who is he? Why does he have so much effect on me?
• "You're mine, Alexandra. Don't forget that!" Those were his last words before I lost consciousness.