Chapter 48 Heartbroken

• Dawn and Eva look at each other and start bouncing up and down like they just won the lottery… They run up to me and bear hug me! What is happening? They are… Happy? What the fuck are they thinking? How are they happy about this whole situation? I look at them perplexed as they go back and forth saying they are going to be aunties and how Ezra and the baby are going to be best friends… Are they insane… No, really are they fucking okay in the head. I am going to be a single mom, with no job and no savings.
• Don’t they know this is not a good thing. This baby is not going to have a daddy for God’s sake! I know what it’s like not to have a dad around. What if I end up being like my egg donor, she was a horrible mother. What if it’s in my genes to be a horrible mom? It is one thing to ruin my life, but not this innocent little life growing inside me. I am not ‘Mom” material. What will my baby think of me? Oh god… What the Fuck am I going to do?
• “E, you can’t look at this as a negative. This baby is a blessing!” Dawn says excitedly.