Chapter 41

• She couldn't move. Alexis had woken up an hour ago but she couldn't move because she didn't feel like it. Because her limbs felt languid and her body.... Well, she didn't have a word to describe it. Stretching, she curled up on her side, hands on the pillow and head on top them thinking about the weekend. It had been amazing, thanks to Ray. Ray. Just the thought of his name sent her heart into a dance and heat pooling low in her stomach. Who knew what that tongue and those hands could do? Who knew what the man himself was capable of? She certainly didn't. And now that she knew, it was hard not to picture them going all the way.
• She had tried being with Connor. He was a good kisser but sadly that was as far as his abilities went. The first time they'd ventured from kissing, he'd tried moving his hands to her breasts and she'd let him thinking it was okay since he was her boyfriend. But she couldn't help but feel anything. No butterflies, no quickened breathing, no desire twisting in her stomach. Maybe it was the way he breathed heavily or how clumsy his hands were, she couldn't really pinpoint the problem. All she knew is that when he tried to take it further, she had blurted out she wasn't ready. Of course, he'd been mad accusing her of leading him on, but he'd calmed down and said he was willing to wait until she was ready. A year later she'd decided she was ready so she planned everything. A room at a five-star hotel, the surprise that would be waiting for him since it was his birthday, the sexy clothes, everything.
• Connor had been ecstatic. They'd eaten, danced, laughed and when things got serious, she'd whipped out her lingerie. His eyes had bugged out, then he was reaching for her, kissing her, touching her, undressing her. It was going okay and Alexis had thought she was ready. But the second she felt his fingers probing her, she'd pushed him away. His confusion had been clear on his face but she couldn't care less about making him feel better so she'd rushed to the bathroom and locked herself in. She'd felt dirty like he had violated her in some way even though he was her boyfriend. Later she told him that she wasn't ready to be intimate with him. He'd said it was okay but she couldn't help wondering if that was why he'd cheated. Her continuous refusal to sleep with him.