Chapter 109

• "For that reason I feel so terrified now, I don't know how good it would be for my son to be with me."
• "You know, when my wife came out pregnant with our first baby, I felt the same way you do. I was scared to death, I didn't feel like I was capable of being a good father. But when my son was born and I held him in my arms for the first time, I thought of only one thing, I would do my best to be the best example for him, and see to it that he lacked nothing. I trust you can do the same, sir."
• "I'm not so much," I said, fixing my eyes on the growing roses in the garden overhead. "If only I could turn back the fucking clock. If I hadn't been so stupid, none of this would have happened."