Chapter 57

• -In one of the corridors, there is a picture of Esteban when he was a child. It's surrounded by trees, it makes me curious, I don't understand what that place could be. And whenever I look at it, all my thoughts remind me of it, it's a vicious circle with no way out. That's why I changed all the furniture, painted everything and tried to change the whole place. The café is no longer at the top. I don't need Esteban to get things from upstairs anymore. We also don't have the same dish dryer, which Esteban used to use and always left the same silverware there. Now it's just drying a single cup with a single knife, fork and spoon.
• "There is no longer one brush next to the other, the toilet seat is never up. I always have the bed made, and everything pretty clean. I even tidied up the subfloor storage. The vegetables are no longer scattered everywhere. But all that cleaning, all that order and those changes remind me that I am alone that Esteban will never come back, and I think at first I started to give up for him, so that the day he returns, I can see his whole house in pretty good order and condition. But I am realizing with more and more that that will not happen . as the days go by my hopes for him to come through the door, I am coming in . So if you tell me that, it's because it's true. My heart is far away from here, miles away. Esteban, he stayed with him and I'm not interested in getting him back.
• -You're very strong, you'll be able to excel. At some point it won't hurt anymore. I also lived with my last partner and we were together for a long time. When she left, it was pretty hard not to see her clothes or even her clothes. But well, life goes on and you have to move on because if you are not strong no one is going to do it for you.