Chapter 44 Chris

• "Christian didn't want to fall apart. He was strong and knew how to deal with that kind of situation, but one thing prevented him from being the Chris who ignored his feelings, making him feel like shit. Sophia was his guide, his strength, but also the person who held him tight and prevented him from doing any more crazy things.
• It would be easier to ignore it with a liter of drink, medicine, or LSD. That would make him wired, his mind sedated, and he would have energy for sex. However, he couldn't even imagine his own wife without clothes. That wouldn't bring him the expected effect.
• Moreover, he was thinking that it was all his fault, even though the mistake was Eduard's. He was right this time, but no one but Sophia believed him.