Chapter 39 Lola

• I look to Manuel who is just gazing at me, which I can’t help but smile at. I seem to have been blessed with the sweetest guy for a mate I truly do. I should probably look to get up and look after him, I don’t want to fail him as a mate on the first day together, or else I’d be heading straight back to my pack before I’d even moved away.
• I want to make sure I am a good mate, I need to make sure I am doing all the things I need to do as a mate, running the home, making sure Manuel has everything he needs at home…. We had all this drummed into us growing up, I need to make sure I do not fail. I do not want to lose him. He is just the sweetest guy so I am not sure he would even tell me if I wasn’t doing something right either, that’s the difficult thing.
• I should maybe address that with him, make him give me a rota of jobs he needs me to do, like my Mami has, that way I make sure everything is done, plus I need to make sure I do everything he wants in the bedroom too, or else I am failing as a mate in that way too. He seemed satisfied last night and this morning…… but what if I am wrong? What if I am a disappointment? I cant be a failure as a mate, though I can’t imagine Manuel would beat me like they do back at Crimson Night Pack if you don’t do the right thing…. Would he?