Chapter 60

• “Yes. Exactly.” I told her. I bit my lip and looked down to pick at the material on the cushion. “I don’t know if I can, Daxx.” I flicked my eyes to hers then looked away just as fast. “Live that long.” I said softly. “In my mind, so busy without end…” I shook my head and took a short breath, feeling my emotions crushing me. “I don’t know if I can do it that long.” I felt a tear in my eye, but left it to fall. “I couldn’t sleep, the excitement and nerves, knowing of the battle to be,” I nodded so she knew, “the one we did to free the scared eyes.” I took a deep breath and it shook with the release. “So, I read,” I smiled briefly when I remembered the look on Bronx’s face when I said I was taking all the books I had selected, ‘to pass the time.’ I bit my lip and felt another tear fall. “I read of others, those that are like me.” I still couldn’t believe that was true. “Seers.” I nodded and looked at her. “I am a seer. That is my skill.” I puffed out my cheeks and blew out a breath to control the emotions. “Even about those who learned to control the things forced in their head,” I paused to look at her again, her blue eyes hadn’t strayed. Daxx always listened. “After some time, many years, they all ended the same.” I tapped my head with my finger. “The flashes... the visions won in the end and the seer did not.” I nodded. “So many I read about that became void, no longer meant for society…” I sniffed, not liking that tears still fell, “that’s what the books said.”
• I stood up, not able to sit still for a second more. “How can I be a mate for Victor?” I touched my arm, “and take his mark if I’m to be like that.” I nodded and looked at her through watery eyes. “To live that many years just…” I paused to find the word, “assures I will end up that way and leave him with a mate that speaks and moves no more.”
• She jumped up and hugged me tight. I felt more tears fall. I didn’t understand all of it, but I hadn’t ever felt this kind of pain before. I felt like I lost something I didn’t even have.