Chapter 215 Disgust

• Adea
• No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t calm down. So, I worked on relaxing my face, calming my breathing, and the bite in my tone. I knew this wasn’t the time or place for this conversation. I didn’t even want to have this conversation. The only thing I wanted to do was rip Shane’s heart out. This alliance, this peace treaty, and this meeting was the only thing stopping me from doing it right here, right now. The moment, I lunged at him, the treaty would be null. Desert Moon would be out and Ethan would lose his seat at The Alpha’s Table. Even if we had every reason to want his blood, to demand his life, we couldn’t have it. Not right now at least. Not in this room. When I had my mind and temper under control, I focused my attention back on Shane. I hated the way he still looked at me like I was his. I hated the warmth in his eyes, he got when he looked at me, I hated the people he hurt in the name of this twisted idea of love he had for me. I hated being the reason for their death, pain, and suffering. I hated being the reason. Seeing him standing there with that look on his face was the straw that broke my resistance. I knew where I was, I knew who sat around us, and I knew this was the man that abused me. Did that stop the word vomit from coming out? No. It didn’t, couldn’t stop the long-overdue words from spilling from my mouth.
• “If it weren’t for my required attendance, Alpha,” I said through clenched teeth. “I would not be here. I wouldn’t have come if someone promised me all the riches in the world. The number of atrocious acts you have committed since I’ve known you are far too many to count. Not just to me and my family but to yours as well. You have not only cost me part of my family but you’ve also hurt those I’d give my life for. So no, Devin, I don’t care about Shane’s feelings. I don’t care about what you want, Shane. I don’t care about your reason for doing the shit you’ve done and I hate the thought of being the motivation behind those acts. It hasn’t even crossed my mind to care. I’m mated to Ethan, he was made for me, and I for him. Everyone in this room already knows I’m loyal. You’re the only one who doesn’t seem to know that. I shouldn’t have or need to explain myself to you. There is nothing you have that I could want. There’s nothing you could offer me, that would make me want you. I have hated every single minute that I’ve had to sit across from you and see your face. I can’t stand the fact that I’ve had to breathe the same air as you. You disgust me.”