Chapter 31 Another Loss

• "I'm sorry, but he'll be hanging on to one." Those words keep ringing in my head as I stroll down the street. Hanging on to one, isn't that as good as death? Why are you doing this to me? Why did you have to take drugs? Not just any drugs, but heroin. What were you thinking? I shouldn't be blaming him. Those empty brains are the ones to be blamed. If their moms took heroin each time life frustrated them, would they be here to administer doses to someone else? I suddenly notice I'm going too far from the hospital. I think of turning back but decide against it. Being there would constantly remind me that I'm the reason Dean's in that condition. I hail a cab and head home. My throat feels so dry. I open the fridge to get a bottle of water, but my eyes land on the strawberry juice. A wide smile curves on my lips as I reach for it. I wonder why Liam didn't see this one.
• He dumps every strawberry-related thing in the bin. I'm about to stab it with the straw when the doorbell interrupts. I groan and drop it. It's like the person was just waiting for me to return home. I drag my feet to the door and pull it open.
• "Jamie?" He smiles and walks in.