Chapter 1230

• "We'll talk about your future later, good night."
• I give Florence one more big hug and we kiss each other on the cheek. Before I even make it up the stairs I feel my phone vibrate. She must have already sent the link. She is really excited about me seeing these. I get in my room, brush my teeth, and climb into bed. Just like clockwork, I hear Frank's car door slam out front. My son is tall and muscular and more than capable of defending himself. The father in me still sighs in relief when I hear him get home safely. I still haven't looked at the pictures and I don't think I'm going to. My phone is plugged in on the nightstand next to my side of the bed. I still only sleep on the left side when Lilly isn't here.
• I keep trying to sleep but my mind is too active. I'm fending off incestuous thoughts of my daughter. I slipped up and slept with my sister but we were young and dumb. This is the daughter I raised and took care of. Florence puts all her trust and faith into me and I cannot throw all this away now. Sometimes I wonder if I'd look at my daughter like that if I never experimented with my sister. Maybe incest would be irredeemably gross to me if I never partook in it. Maybe if I wasn't so damn horny all the time I'd never have these thoughts. I haven't had a consistent sex life for the last five years. Lilly is too mentally unstable to do something so stimulating. My wife can hardly watch action or suspense movies without getting worked up. I find myself thinking about Joan again and we haven't had sex in half a lifetime. My need for a personal connection stops me from ever sleeping with a stranger.