Chapter 57

• My intentions with her have always been clear, it was never going to be more than just sex between us but with Camilla, it's more than love, we started with love before anything. I understand Angel's resentment towards Camilla but she needs to get over herself and accept reality. Camilla is my reality and my daydream. I did tell Angel I didn't know how to feel and I don't, hunger and horniness are my two emotions but, that was before Camilla, with her I feel so many things I can't put a name on and it scares me.
• It scares me that I won't be able to love her right, I fear screwing us up in a flash. I have already hurt her so much, I don't think another wave of pain would be fair on her thus, I tiptoe around my decisions when it comes to my personal life, she will always come first in it.
• Entering our bedroom, yes, this is our bedroom. Mine and Camilla's, my mother had it made specifically for my mate and I. I haven't let another girl sleep in this room with the exception of the time Santiago found me attempting to fuck her.