Chapter 3

• I thought I was ready and I knew this day would come soon but I’m not ready yet, I’m just scared. I couldn’t even see anything because my eyes were covered with a long black satin and also my hands were tied up. The scariest thing is it’s raining and thundering heavily. After some time I heard someone’s footsteps coming towards me and I knew he’s the man that I’m going to lose my virginity to. Then I heard his cloth removing sound. I knew he was looking at me and I could feel his burning gaze on me. No words could describe the fear that my heart was feeling right now. I started to bite my bottom lip because I wanted to calm down. I felt him as he came and climbed onto me as he placed himself on top of me. I could feel his scent and it made my heart beat so fast, It was the smell of damn expensive perfume. I was pulled back from my thoughts as he started to remove my nightgown. My body began to tremble because I was scared so I clutched the bedsheet so tightly.
• “Scared?” He asked huskily against my ear. Damn.. he can’t be an old man. His voice is just young but that didn’t ease my fear.
• “Can.. Can you remove this blindfold, sir?” I asked as I heard his voice again.
• “No. You shouldn’t see me” He said and parted my legs while placing himself between my legs. He made me wrap my legs around his torso, with that I felt a sharp pain between my legs. So finally it happened. I bit my bottom lip so hard because I didn’t want to let out any voice. He waited for a few seconds and tears came out of my eyes as he started to move. It hurts….
• “Ca..can I touch you, sir? It hurts” I found myself crying because I wanted something strong to depend on so he untied my hands.
• “Of course” Without thinking I hugged him so tightly and buried my face against his neck. His strong scent filled my nose and for some unknown reason, I really liked it. Suddenly, he started to move fast and I wanted to scream but I forced my voice not to come out so again I bit my bottom lip so hard. I felt I was an object that he used to vent his desire, I felt like I was a cheap woman who sells her own body for money but I should be strong because I’m giving myself to save a life. Then he gently touched my body and kissed my head. I was surprised and my heart also started to beat even faster. I let go of his neck and laid back because I was just tired.
• “Don’t bite your lips. Already bleeding” I heard his voice through his heavy breathing. I nodded at him because that woman told me to be obedient. I heard him chuckle and suddenly he kissed me. WHAT? I never expected him to kiss me and it was my first kiss. My heartbeat increased and I just didn’t think that he would kiss me. It was a gentle kiss, unintentionally my hands wrapped around his neck and pulled him closer to me as he pushed his tongue inside of my mouth. Then his kisses slowly moved to my neck and downwards……………… It was a really long night for me.
• The next day I woke up and no one was in the room. I got up from the bed and saw the huge blood patch on it. My virginity is gone. I just wanted to give it to a person I love but I had to give it to a man I never knew. I sighed and took a step forward as I screamed unintentionally.
• “Ahhh.” I fell down and without knowing tears came out of my eyes. It really hurts between my legs. That man is a beast with high stamina as hell. How many times did he do that? I don’t even know, thank god I fell asleep.
• “What happened?” I heard that woman’s voice as I looked up at her. Her eyes were traveling through my body. I felt an embarrassing feeling because of the look she gave.
• “I..I fell” I spoke and tried to get up but I couldn’t.
• “First time will always hurt the woman and I see, Young master wasn’t gentle.” I looked down because I didn’t know how to face her. She came and helped me to get up and go to the bathroom. After she’s gone I looked at myself through the bathroom mirror and saw the hickeys-filled body and messy hair. I forced myself to smile because I did this for my little brother. I took a shower and came out. I wanted to see Noah as soon as possible because I couldn’t see him for two weeks. I changed into a black short frock and went out of the room because I wanted to ask permission from that woman but to my surprise, she was also there in front of my room.
• “Can I go and see my brother?” I asked her as she nodded.
• “I’m also coming with you and old madam asked me to give you this” I took the envelope and opened it. I felt happy because they gave me money as they told me. Now I can pay for Noah’s surgery and ask them to do the surgery because I will pay the rest after I get it.
• “Okay” With that, I left the house with her. I came to the hospital and went to Noah’s ward and saw he was sleeping. So I talked with the doctor and paid the money.
• “But we can’t do the surgery before the full payment is settled” What? Why?
• “Why?” I asked because I felt like my whole world collapsed within a second.
• “It’s the rule miss, I’m sorry” With that he just left. What should I do now? Why did this happen to me? How am I supposed to save Noah now?
• “Ca..can I get the other half of the money amount now? Please.. I really need this. My little brother wants it. Please” My tears came out as I spoke. I wanted money and that’s why I sold my body to a stranger. I looked at the woman in front of me and I could feel she was sad.
• “I can’t because our old madam asked me not to give it before giving birth” She spoke while looking away from me.
• “I’ll talk to her. Please. I beg you. I really need this” I begged her. So she sighed and called her old madam and asked. I couldn’t hear what she said from the other side. The woman I was talking to nodded and hung up the call.
• “I’m sorry. Old madam didn’t agree” I looked at her with disbelief. What? The old madam… Is she heartless? Why? I wanted it because of my brother.
• “Why? Please. I beg you. My brother.. He’s just a little kid. Only seven years old. He can’t die. It’s too early to leave this world. Please.. Let me talk to her.” I sobbed. I didn’t care about anything, I wanted to save my brother and that’s all.
• “You can’t cry like this. It will affect your health” Ha.. My health? Or just because I slept with her young master and was going to give birth to a baby. Wait, young master…. I should ask him.
• “I want to talk to your young master. Let me talk to him” I asked but she shook her head.
• “You think that the young master has time to listen to you? He has work and he’s busy. Just give up and let’s go home” With that she grabbed me from my hand but I shook her hand and went towards my brother’s ward. I went in and saw he was still sleeping. I can’t, I just can’t hold my tears back as I saw him. I kissed his forehead and took his notebook and a pen as I wrote that I love him and I will come to visit him soon. Then I left the hospital with one thought and it was I will wait for the young master. He will come tonight, so I’ll ask him. I’ll make him agree to give money.
• I waited, I waited all night but he never showed up. Why? Why didn’t he come? I was just confused because it can’t happen in one day right? Maybe he will come tomorrow, then I’ll ask him. I knew he would agree because I didn’t feel him heartless and I don’t think the father of my baby will be a heartless man.
• ………………….
• Time passed and it’s been three months yet I’m waiting for him. I got the result a month ago and at that time I was pregnant for two months already. So he got me pregnant that night. I sighed and placed my hand on my belly because there’s a little life growing inside of my belly.
• “Baby will wait for your daddy okay? Because your little uncle needs to have his surgery soon” I smiled. I was somewhat happy because I’m going to be a mother. I turned around as aunty Jade came into the room. She was holding a huge fruit plate and what caught my attention was papaya. I suddenly wanted to vomit. A disgusting feeling ran through my body but why? I ate papaya before. Why now? I ran to the bathroom and vomited. Then I came out and saw aunty Jade was still in the room. Then I saw grapes on the plate. I quickly went forward and grabbed it as I started to eat.