Chapter 63 Jake

• ‘Rubes, are you ok?’ I try to mindlink as I aimlessly wandered from Knox’s home to mine. Glad to finally get away and be on my own. This is the heaven knows how many times I have tried to mind link her since she walked out of Knox and Lilah’s home, but she seems to have her guard up. Maybe to me, or maybe to everyone, I don’t know. But I know she doesn’t want to speak to me. Yet, I desperately want to know she is ok. Maybe that is wrong of me. Maybe I don't have the right.
• I feel so guilty she witnessed Jaxx doing that. It isn’t unsual that we witness our wolves, or other wolves within our pack hurt one another, occasionally killing other wolves. Warriors, Alphas and Betas are generally more accustomed to it, some barely flinching when it happens. But I know for some people it truly affects them, and upsets them. Not all the vicious and ferocious beasts people would imagine us to be. Ruby had already seen so many shitty things in her old pack, and been through so much losing her mate too. I did not want to be the cause of any more pain for her, yet it seems I already have been. And I truly hate myself for that.
• Still no response from Ruby. I truly think she does not want to talk to me and that hits me right through the heart. We had always been able to talk. I need to make sure she is ok.