Chapter 248 It Took Me A Long While To Process 2

• “You can come in if you want,” Ryan said as we both got out of the car.
• I didn’t want to tell him that I couldn’t face Derek right now. Not after last night in the parking lot… and afterwards, when I kept seeing both his and Ryan’s face during sex.
• As I lay awake last night in bed and listened to Ryan drop off to sleep, I had started building a psychological fortress to protect myself: a wall separating me and Ryan from Derek, formed with bricks of denial, logic, promises of self-control… whatever was at hand as my thoughts raced through my head.