Chapter 208 As Soon As We Got In 3

• All those feelings slowly eroded. The music didn’t console me, Ryan’s presence didn’t help… only the wine did any good as it numbed the pain.
• I couldn’t talk to Ryan about what I was feeling, because I knew it would hurt him. So I didn’t really talk to him at all – which ended up hurting him even more.
• When I say I didn’t talk to him, I didn’t mean I went silent. There was the polite chit-chat of meals, of our evenings spent in the same room but miles apart emotionally. All I could think about was Derek, about how he was doing this to get revenge on me, about how he was destroying himself, about what he was doing at that very moment.