Chapter 7

• But no no NO! I was wrong as Natasha stood in front of me with a huge smile.
• She jumped at me saying "I missed you so much baby. I thought I'll surprise you"
• "That was a bad idea cause I need to leave soon so I think you better leave too"
• "It's ok! We can continue this tonight. I just wanted to see you" she said trying to push me on the couch and acting exactly opposite to her words.
• She successfully pushed me on the couch and sat on me. She started kissing my neck and this was the first time I felt nothing. I actually felt awkward and guilty as I was trying to sit up. I just sat there not knowing what to do. And I was even more shocked to the fact that I felt guilty?
• Then I heard something, or someone's footsteps nearing. But before I could see Natasha pushed me back even more and kissed me on my lips.
• Then I heard a gasp from behind. I looked behind Natasha and saw Caroline's shocked face filled with complete hurt, anger, disgust and..... pain! Oh shit!
• Before I could push Natasha she left the living area. I got up on my feet and ran behind her. I stood near the kitchen entrance as she collected few things that was kept on the table and.. looked back at me.
• She looked at me with so much hatred. I never was affected by that look. But the pain flashing in her eyes broke my heart. She stood in front of me, I thought she wanted to speak but then she pushed me aside and ran out of the door. I saw her run so fast and I didn't have it in me to stop her. It's not me when I'm with that girl.
• I turned back to see Natasha who stood clueless. I looked at her so furiously and screamed a "get out" to her. She didn’t say a word but left.
• I sat there for a few minutes looking around like a fool. I calmed myself. And after thinking hard I came to a conclusion that this girl, Caroline, is like a poison who's killing me slowly. So it's better I stay away from her. I did feel the guilt which is not the usual me. She brings a change in me. It's not right to go behind her. I'll let her go.I will stay away from her from now on.
• Caroline's POV
• Oh hope it's not what I'm seeing. No no no! Please God No. Oh
• fuck! He was kissing a blonde bitch in front of my eyes. Couldn't he have waited for me to leave?
• He looked behind the blonde bitch to see me standing here with shock written all over my face and tears running down uncontrollably.
• What the fuck am I still doing here. I need to leave. I've made enough fool of myself. I went back to the kitchen got my cell everything and turned back to see him again looking at me. I pushed him out of my way and ran.
• I ran ran ran. I ran until I finally found myself in front of Kate's house.I just kept on banging on her door with tears still running down my face.
• She opened the door and was about to tell something but as soon as she saw me she closed her mouth and let me in without uttering any single word.I went to her room and laid on my stomach crying my eyes out.
• I felt numb. I felt cheated. I should have known. We met at a club. I obviously wouldn’t have any future with him. He would definitely not offer commitment or a relationship.I knew all this but why did I expect more from him!
• I stopped crying!And I realized I already felt a lot for him. I can't say it's love. But it was a strong feeling, strong attraction I felt towards him.
• And he is not at fault. He didn’t cheat on me. It's just that our thoughts didn’t match. I act and have thoughts as that of a 17th century girl. With "sex after marriage". Or I was living in a dilemma that "sex happens cause of love". Well it doesn’t work like that in today's New York. I smiled to myself. He is forgiven I thought.
• But then again. He should have waited until I left. 'Was I such a bad lay' I thought. And started with my tears again.