Chapter 42

• Caroline’s POV
• I came out to have some fresh air. So that I could stay away from my inner turmoil at least for a second. I wrapped a blanket around me that smelled of Daniel reminding me about him.. I walked out of the gate for a few minutes before I reached the beach. In all these three weeks that I spent here. This was the beach that was a beautiful view from my window. I wanted to come here. Sophia even suggested Daniel to take me here, but obviously Natasha had to ruin our plans saying she wants to tag along. What would I do with the two of them together, so I came up with an excuse saying I'm not feeling well. It was like a stab to my heart seeing Daniel and Natasha together. So this was the view from my window keeping me sane for this long, I could forget about Daniel and Natasha jumping at each other. It helped me not to strangle them both to death.
• Daniel would never understand my feelings. Being a girl listening to fairytale love stories since childhood who was always hoping for a Prince Charming... I could never tell Daniel first that I love him. He might cancel our contract and leave me then and there. May be a girl should never approach a boy first. It just kills her reputation. That's what happened to me when I shamelessly proposed to Edward. It was a dare at first but then I really fell in love with him. See! After our break up, or when dad found out that he abused me.. I don't know what happened but Edward had suddenly disappeared. And everyone in school used to see me with so much disgust.. I felt awful! And see.. for whom I did all that.. for Edward.. even he didn't respect me enough. So I don't want to take any chances again. May be God hasn't written love in my fate. May be I'm never destined to get love. If that is it, then I shall accept it and move on.