Chapter 40 Sexual Assault

• I know this is not easy but I never thought it would be this hard. Damn. I knew it. I fucking knew it! I feel like I’m slapped by cold ice. It’s shameful. He knows. He knows what I’m trying to do but he didn’t make it clear.
• For sure he doesn’t know the purpose of it all. He just knew that I’m trying to hold him on the neck so I can do whatever that I want, right? Or does he know all along?
• I palmed my face while I’m at my room. Now I’m torn. The child-like attitude didn’t take effect. The bitchy attitude isn’t effective as well. The sweet and submissive attitude is something I can’t stomach, not to say that he’s sometimes acting like a sulky boyfriend. Now what should I do?